Some Days Are Harder Than Others
I try very hard to maintain a positive outlook - about rescue and my life in general. I don’t see much point in moping around feeling sorry for myself. Just makes me and anyone around me miserable. Some days though, staying positive is harder than others.
Last night, I got an urgent call from someone who needed to get rid of 4 kittens. They wanted them out by today or they would be going to a kill shelter. I missed the call because I didn’t hear my cell phone ring, but I called back within 20 minutes as soon as I listened to the message left. The number went straight to voicemail, so I left a message saying I could help, to call me back. When she hadn’t called back after about an hour, I tried to call again and again got just the voicemail. By the time I went to bed, I hadn’t heard back from anyone.
This afternoon, I finally get a call back - telling me that since she couldn’t reach me, she took the kittens to the kill shelter. She basically laid it all at my feet, like I hadn’t called her back at all. I don’t know if she didn’t bother to listen to her messages or what, but I DID try to help this woman (more importantly, I DID try to help those kittens!) Now, in spite of common sense, I feel guilty. I don’t know what else I could’ve done, but I hate that those poor kittens ended up in some kill shelter. Since they’re kittens, they might have a chance at getting adopted - it just depends how full the shelter already is. And if they’re given space, it means other cats have to die. It just sucks no matter how you look at it.
I know I can’t save them all. Truth be told, we shouldn’t have taken in the kittens anyway, being as full as we already are. Doesn’t make it feel any better though. I wish now that the woman had never called me in the first place.
Since I’m venting as it is, I might as well add that I REALLY can’t wait until the Senior & Special Needs Shelter (aka my upstairs) has the funds necessary to get the vinyl flooring! I’ve been steam cleaning the carpet up there regularly, but the special kitties have a lot of accidents. It’s just a pain in the butt and will be much nicer when all I have to do is mop!
Enough with the negativity.
See ya next time,
This Crazy Cat Lady